• My story in outline 
• My name is Honza, I am 45 years old, and the last 13 years of my life have been an extremely demanding period.
• I am not crying, nor blaming anyone for anything. 🙂 Quite the opposite!
• I am grateful for every new morning, with sincerity and humility in my heart, for guidance, protection, and small miracles each day.
• I thank, with deep gratitude, those who helped me a little along this long and heavy journey. I do not intend to betray their trust – on the contrary, it will be my joy and honor to give back, to close the circle toward satisfaction for everyone involved, people and animals alike.
• I also thank those who gave me hard lessons, deprived me of money, nonprofit activities, or a career. They taught me to grow stronger, to be more myself, and to understand how this world works – and which paths do not lead forward.
• I never longed to put myself on display! I love my privacy, and I dance because it fulfills and delights me personally. I do not seek an audience – but when the music plays, I cannot sit still for long.
• MUSIC – the love of my life: Music has been with me since birth as a gift, a guide, and a source of joy.
• Thank you for the insight and strength that animals and nature give me!

Like all of us, I have made many mistakes in life, but never with bad intent – most often they were challenges I could not manage at the time, and external pressure that taught me patience, perspective, and humility.

“It’s not that a person must make mistakes. They simply cannot avoid them.”

• Anna Hogenová

Until 2012, I was an entrepreneur. I founded and ran a nonprofit music festival. I devoted myself to helping others and to public-benefit projects. Then came a combination of betrayal and three blows with consequences – loss of income and an enforcement trap. Everything broke down.

In the case of regular employment, debt enforcement takes most of your income, and it is impossible to live long-term on what remains, especially if you are on your own. Thirteen years without reserves, on the edge of survival – with only small breaths of relief in between. I will manage this from other commercial projects. However, because of this, I am no longer able to finance the care, treatment, and development of charitable activities on my own.

I worked as an IT consultant and IT technician for almost a year, for 15 pubs during my stay in London. In the Czech Republic, I later worked as a headhunter, broker, etc. But every income went toward basic living expenses or to covering periods of financial collapse and their immediate consequences. A vicious circle.

Even so, it was not wasted time, and I managed to plant seeds and gain valuable experience. I was never willing to be bought or long-term exploited, and I never said the opposite of what I truly thought – even in moments when my survival was at stake!

Most of the things described here are familiar to all of us. Usually, life crises involve pressure in one or two areas of life and are temporary. Not in all areas at once, relentlessly, without a chance to breathe, for more than a decade straight.

“The crisis that is now slowly coming to an end lasted almost continuously – and on all levels of life.
Throughout that time, I had not a single stable point: neither material, nor relational, nor systemic – and later not even health-related.”

This long period, and the context described below, have significantly affected my health and my ability to start again.

I did not give up and kept searching for new paths, changed fields, retrained, and worked on myself. I do not want to throw away what I have learned – I want to transform experience into creation and support for others. The projects I am finishing are not just about me or for me.

Despite all the work, invested energy, and achieved results, I often remained without reward. Because of debt enforcement and the absence of reserves, I could not defend myself legally. Even so, I met many amazing, capable, interesting, talented, intelligent, and good people – I would very much like to reconnect some of them and begin new cooperation. Overall, I lost approximately 3 million CZK.

I gave my maximum in relationships and do not regret it. I went through what most of you have. I supported my partners, never allowed myself to be financially supported (with one short exception) – even while I myself struggled financially. Once, I took care of a woman who had experienced violent trauma and protected her from aggressors – which led to the interruption of my work and a loss of income. Another cohabitation ended painfully – including domestic violence by a partner. ETC., ETC. Very little ever came back to me.

It took me a long time, and cost a great deal of strength and resources, to understand things, to set boundaries, and to better understand myself. Today, I am grateful for all of it – for what it ultimately gave me internally and how it moved me forward.

“A person who has never cried has not lived a real life.”

— Jan Werich

I had no support from my family – I did not take my share of the inheritance so that it would go to others. When I later asked for help, they refused and did not care how I would end up. The proposed compromise (I would settle for one third of what was rightfully mine) was not accepted. This, too, is part of the story.

 Part-time jobs and side jobs, between or alongside projects

To function in times of crisis and to cover at least basic needs, I took every job that was around – regardless of prestige, fatigue or health.

Construction worker, gardener, waste removal, Technician for installation and servicing of wifi connections, Taxi driver, driving tourists around Prague in rickshaws, Administration, rewriting texts, analytical work, Setting up a party of tents, moving, manual work

I did everything that was needed when my body was still functioning – and always with joy. But it was only enough for basic expenses: rent, food, survival. There was usually nothing left for more.